Cutting Through

Ha-Cha!

Perhaps you have grown up with the expressions, "splitting the bindu", or cutting through red tape.
Maybe your idea of challenging the world is to arm yourself with the sword of truth.

When I was a young student of eastern studies, I had already grown up with the European concepts of the sword of truth, the double edged sword, the "Sword of Damocles", as if the sword of truth dangled above a young, innocent students' head, anyway!

We are innocent people who use concepts that are rhetorically romantic to most of us. Few of us arm ourselves with swords in order to conquer the world.

During my early years studying Buddhism, one of the meditation techniques that I learned was "splitting the bindu". We were supposed to imagine the subject that we sought as a bubble or gem-like bead in front of us. Bindu means "bubble", or "gem".

This technique, we were told, was an ability to "intellectually" cut through problems that we found hard to face, like bad feelings, psychic chit chat, even illness in ourselves and others. As well, when we did not understand a situation we were told of this technique for "lightning-swift samadhi" (the sword of change).

All of us tried this and some of us adhered to the concept, as if surgeons, construction people, etc.

As I grew a little more mature I started to notice that "splitting the bindu" was starting to be troublesome - this idea was becoming ferocious as young people dreamed up antique swords and giant blades, smashing them with brutal awareness at peoples' intellects. Thoughts are believed to be soft and quiet, but these were dynamic and also vicious.

The hostility and agression within the troubled peoples' thoughts had been so worrisome and noisy as they thrashed away like bizarre antique celtic warriors, that I became more and more turned off at their attitudes and also at the technique.

I was pregnant once or twice. Most people are absolutely sure that their babies will, indeed, move their tiny selves via conduction and pressure, through the vast canal and into the new realm of babyhood. When I went into labour, the pains were monumental, and I screamed very, very loudly. Although I was relieved that labour has started, it was quite a few hours before the babys' head went beyond crowning, which is when the tiny soft top (or, fontanel) of the babys' head can be felt as it begins to exit the vagina.

My tools on hand were very little beside the stirrups separating my legs and a can of icy cold ginger ale, which, when I was a poor young person, was, in those days, somewhat of a treat. The ginger ale was such a luxury that it calmed me down- I got my strokes, took my pleasure in getting away with something I couldn't afford.

It took patience to get that little one out, each time. Because of the size of babys' head, Doctors had to cut a small slit in the wall between anus and vagina, saying that it would rip if they did not ease the birth procedure. Though it worked, I was in a great deal of pain after the birth, on both occasions.

Surgery is cutting through with finite awareness. The baby is not damaged; sometimes the parent must suffer, but it all goes away and the happy Mother can get on with life.

I must compare the attitude of these frustrated worshippers with that of a person hacking the whole procedure out, rather than using established technique for ease of exit. Since Doctors had to use forceps on one of my children, I am well aware that intellectually (or otherwise) slashing through the whole ball game does not work in every way, and that flesh and the psyche (your body mind and spirit)are always going to be a consideration. Things are not always perfectly set up so that everything works smoothly, and perhaps this is why the "short path" to investigating in ones' mind is an intellectual sword and not a treat like the can of ginger ale.

Still, to a woman, cutting through what could be a person with a sword just did not measure up to softer ways. Why not massage the bindu, I murmured sweetly to myself.

Let the bindu feel itself in other bindus! Yay! Blow on the bindu ( a really good technique) or pick it up.

It was not within my nature to think of sqeezing it because it is supposed to be a tender bubble.
Have you ever slashed through an iridescent bubble to see what was truly within it? You're not going to see much besides a lot of wet, sticky stuff...and there goes the entity that is a bindu- pop!

I wondered about all this, becasue I had travelled around and I probably got pretty radioactive climbing around on ravines and camping across Canada and the US. I discovered that this was probably the case when actual thoughts both ways, were becoming almost like weaponry. For one thing, some of we students could feel how our ancestors or theirs (in meditation) had cut through peoples heads, hands and babies, with great anger and hatred.

I have always been a tolerant person, but I can equate the feeling within my heart with the chagrine some people feel about the word "fuck". Since these people irritate me enormously, since they are always complaining about words that are just in peoples' thoughts, I have thought about getting on any bandwagon about thoughts and radioactivity, or thoughts and ancestral violence in the family.And I voted not to bother people like the speech whiners. Maybe others were not radioactive and they ahd to convert their rouge past.

I have come to peace with the concepts of "splitting the bindu", arming myself with that arcane sword of truth, or using "psychic binoculars', in the understanding of how my body and mind work together. I do not sport swords, binoculars, periscopes etc. within my body. I do not wish to arm myself with what manifests when I make an analogy; that is, radioactivity from a polluted world is hardening the dust that I breathe in from its esponged state, as it rots back through my body toward nature.

If I think I have an object in my grasp, or pressed to my ear perhaps, the radioactivity and even the empowerment that my own DNAs' nucleopeptides can give the substance, will actually take some recognizable shape within my own system.
(the answer: babies in the uterus do not need cell phones)

Neither do I allow myself, ever , to agress what I do not understand with a sword idea. I don't want to cut and strip, peel, mutilate, viciously split things away. I need to soften things with my mind, just as a deep cloud of steam softens away with sunshine and fine breezes. The ship is revealed, sparkling, and its flags waving in the sun.

I figured this out a long time ago, after the last idiotic oaf imagined his bubble of mystery in front of him/me splitting and making satisfying blood.

I had had enough. Of blood, of course, women need very little more in their line of vision than they see once per month, or after their tiny one is creatively born from them. No, we have that pre-established slit and blood look down pat, thankx yah!

I quit.

I never went back toward the arcane in meditative concepts. From then on, I ignored Zen staffs that beat one over the head and concentrated upon the finesse and quietude of Zen conceptualization.

I also studied Qabbalah, which is Jewish mysticism, and Tarot, which is involved with Qabbalah in a borderline way.

My first card in Tarot was "The Fool". It's associated letter from the Hebrew alphabet is aleph, meaning (originally oxen) and also A and the numerical letter zero.
Aleph also means or has the connotation of original breath. If a great One exists (as I believe) then original breath is in association, sometime before the butterflies mated with the strawberries and made heart beats, or original hearts.

So, I tried being the fool on the hill, day after day.

"Day after day, alone on the hill, the man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still.." (Beatles song)

I associated with that type of spontaneity, being an initiate with little sense. I had my little life and my books and my cards, and my lovers. But when I was alone, I had yoga breath- a type of yoga called "Pranayama". This yoga of pure and focused breathing did, actually change my life. And it was that breath of life concept; that need to soften clouds away from the iridescent surface of that bindu, so that the sky would shine through it and the soap on it would stop spinning. I just blew, in my minds' eye, or with my own breath, upon what I did not know about. These were the stars, the sun, the greatness of God.

And what I found was truly amazing. Awesome.

My breath was also connected to the original breath of the Creator, so that I saw afar what was part of the great soul that is ours within Gods' greatness.

So, I learned not to grasp, touch, cut through or to desire and to envy, but to be still and womanly about what was too big and bad.

I didn't want to create an alter me with weaponry aimed, potentially, at already disastrous circumstance.

I could go on, but to give birth is sometimes a parting with someone as well to be parted. To create is like giving birth- part with the initial components to further the construct. Give it life and part with some of your own air- breathe life into it.

In my world, (and I feel like Bluebell) there will not be war. Drop those swords and blades. Share water and air and earth and fire, and become the great gifts that are inspiring. To learn something, try quiet methods first, not bullyish and uneducated slashing.

War makes war. Giving life bears no unkindness.

Custom, Belief, Faith or Fanaticism?

At times I worry considerably about peoples' perception. Whatever they have learned from their parents,peers and their social or religious leadership, some people excel and love, while a very few seem to be incapable of relating to society without feeling and expressing hatred.
I live in civilized North America, or at least my value system perceives North American life to be civilized. in India, Hindu worshippers do not conceive of the carnage of our eating habits as less than nauseating, or just plain awful, because they are far more often strictly vegetarian.
I am vegetarian myself, and I must admit that my perception dwelt upon the edge of terror when I was young, even when it was at dinner with my parents.
My family has always believed in the regular square meal, but I remember (through the nausea) having panic attacks as I watched the tearing of drumsticks, or the bloody medium rare steak dripping from their imagined fangs.

Mumbai

Recent distress in Mumbai, India tore me apart. In fact, at one point I went to sleep with a tranquilizer to get away from it, although I was seized with the notion that if I just stayed tuned, I could, somehow help.

What I could see when I first heard the news on CNN is that somehow, one of the enormous crafts of yesteryear had dislodged one of the propellor blade functions, and that this had caused tremendous pain toward some people in an ashram. Nuns?
I imagined the many terrorists abreacting in the fear that machines of mass destruction had been turned upon them.
In the meantime I learned that the ancient paths of earth to which some of these early craft have been attached and aggrandized had temporarily trapped a couple of local scientists, who were injured very seriously. In my minds eye, I seemed to hear that, in India the "Culprits" hands had been retrieved.

Of course, those who were relating, who thought they had called in the terror event through being enormously distressed, also heard that people here had suffered misfortune from the same: whatever passive and careful engineering could have been made in the deep past, it is now, after thousands of years, too large and unwieldy to work with all at once, and possibly too rich in fossil gas to be anything but impossibly lethal to the worlds' stasis.

I admit that I have worked with trapped people for years, and that in the past few years I have had distress calls from areas in space. Land masses sometimes jet into space, and we also see large masses dropping back down to earth at times.

It was a bit easier when our astronauts were mining and ecologizing meteorites, which threatened earths' surface, but I am very sure that populated areas or areas that might be in the process of being mined, underground have, actually taken off.
The result can be that a lot of people die, starve, or are grievously injured, but the universe does tend to fit everything back the way that it should be , for the most part.

What I may have perceived of one of the terrorists' thoughts, if I was correct in my understanding that this person participated, is that a man believed himself to have been held prisoner for several years, with little food, water, or proper anything.He said he had just been a photographer.

Since this also happens in a cave system close by, sometimes, it is not surprising that some people go right stark mad, in the feeling that they have been unjustly persecuted. We are not all the intellectual equivalent of St. Paul or PM. Nelson Mandela, after all.

Personally, my feeling about how people perceive when starved, partially amputated, and to add insult to injury, brain injured by normal industry without mercy (no med care available) is that I must appeal to organized religion, the press, especially, and to the more charitably persuaded realtors in the world, to better inform the public as to what can go wrong with land. No, no-one is particularly organized, and yet there have been ecologists claiming that the world has twenty years to live.

Of course, I am like everyone else. I don't believe it. I don't want our house to devalue, so that we are stranded, financially, if we want to move. I realy, really do not think that the world will die in twenty years.

My belief system does include the idea, though, that there are people who are haplessly victimized by land accidents. Fundamentaly, there has been no respect for these souls- they might emerge wrinkled, horned, winged, filthy, cockless, limbless or blind. To the superstitious and downright ugly thinkers of this world they are the condemned and those "who must have fallen through the cracks". No-one knows what this expression means any more, because there are so many people who wish their station in life to seem superior to the "fallen", of whatever nature.

There is still some simple fool who, thirty years ago, believed under the duress of being incarcerated by some gopher or rabbit that he had been "promised a woman". When I was young he used to frighten me to death. What happens to peoples' minds?

The Scriptures prove that early Judaism (in actual Hebrew) offered education and a purse to lost earth victims, whereas those who have translated what is called The New Testament offer the more "modern" words: that these victims are to be given "welfare".
The difference in connotation between these ideas is, in North America incitement to riot. Not only does having 'welfare' attract right warriors of varying states of decrepitude,but it shames people who are used to wealth into starched anality, let alone abject violence.

I say, why not start with some education for people in case anything happens. Survival education, peace work in advance, plans for lost and extant weaponry, in case insanity happens.

I also believe in offering living joys and lovin' care to the victims of land disruption, although not when their diseases have taken over to the extent that they have organized violent procedures.

Personally, I have seen peoples' ego selves knocked out of body totally by sound warfare, as well as by insect or rodent infestation. I feel that, as often as conservative thinking claims that these disorders are too easy to replicate (in order to lighten sentencing after violent crime)therefore, the public should not be made aware of these alter-states, there are twice the situations where it has occurred naturally to unsuspecting and innocent human souls, not to paid murderers.

So, please, if you ever read this- recount something of survival lore and of safety technique to the next of your friends, and pass on some sense, in case it is land disruption that caused warfare (recently) in both Israel and in Mumbai, India.